As Valentines Day nears and all around
I see the hearts and "I love you" candy,
I feel like it is time to address a very
personal issue that I have never
spoken of in exact words on this blog.
Someone I love is an addict.
It is the most heart breaking thing
I have ever experienced, much harder than
deaths of those I love.
Because when you love someone who
is in bondage to a substance,
Love isn't enough to save them
you can love someone with all you are
and have, giving 150% to a relationship
and think that love will conquer all.
It does not.
For 10 years I thought love was enough
to change the direction of this person's life
and that if I just tried harder to love
in different ways then the battle would be won.
It is not won.
But what I have found is that the
Love of Christ
can give me what I need to live,
forgive, love from a distance,
care for others and even laugh
and grow despite everything!
God's love is always enough.
And if the addict never changes,
I know it's not because I didn't love
enough, its because they
are not willing to love them self enough
to fully surrender
to the all encompassing
that rules both earth and heaven.